Friday, May 8, 2009

I'm feeling like i'm fallin' away...

So my sister has been blogging and has told me to blog over and over, here it is.

Now, what do I write about? I don't have exciting things going on in my life....I havn't survived through horrible events in my life...I don't have children....I am just a normal 21 year old girl.

I am challenging myself to look for the interesting aspects of my life throughout the day to day trials and tribulations. I guess because it is a blog it doesn't matter if it entertains anyone, but I feel the need to be entertaining.

The things written in this blog may be extreamly dull.
These are the daily trials and tribulations of a "normal" girl.

I will be very open about my life and what I do. can't complain, you have been warned.

A little about me...well, I am a student at The Ohio State University and I am set to graduate in December 2009 with a BA in Public Affairs Journalism. I would say my life is pretty normal, but what is normal to me may be very different from what others find normal. I have gone through heartbreak which seems to be the only huge hurdle I have had to go through. (wow, I really do sound boring, huh?) That relationship was a military relationship and I learned a lot about myself, relationships, and (inevitably) the military throughout our rise and fall. I plan to make this blog very personal and because of that I do not plan on forwarding the link to any friends/relatives in fear of getting lectured about my continuous "screw-ups"....which I like to call "learning experiences".
I often wonder what this "free-time" is that so many people speak of. The past few years have been very busy with school, work, and internship's consuming all of my time. I feel like i missed out a little on "college life" because I have tried so hard to be responsible and do right by my parents. I rarely drink or go out, mainly because after having work/class all day I don't feel up to it. I don't drink beer, I drink the "foo foo girly drinks" that cause hangovers from hell which also causes me to make drinking a rare occurrence. I wonder how I will feel about not taking advantage of college life ten years from now....
I will often refer to quotes or lyrics. I feel like other people can explain how I feel better than I can. I think today's song is going to be "Falling Away" by Jupiter Rising

Cant you see that its more than a picture
More life than the oldest scripture
Man I tell you this life may miss ya
Play a role and it still may diss ya
For the obvious never felt closer
Till the day that you said its ova
My exposure became your closure
Woke you up like a fresh cup of Folgers

I like it any way (anyway) I do it anyway
There’s really nothing that I really can say, yeah
I’m always on the line I’m always on the grind
I’m always drifting away yeaah

I’m feeling like I’m falling away (yeah)
I’m feeling like I’m falling away
People stop and stare but I don’t really care
Cuz I’m not really here and you’re not really there, there

I might seem to flicker like a fire light unexpected
Rescue mission from my dark side
Sense swelling up inside realize my open eyes
Higher and higher I am the elevator girl

On the up and up and the way I go
Bringing the deposit won’t stop no more
Never afraid to fully play the game
And I’m bringing down the house and I’m collecting
Greener grass on the other side cutting in pressure can’t break my stride
This life is everything this is my anthem

When I close my eyes it still looks the same to me
Shooting high in the sky catching the twilight burning to my memory
I don’t care I don’t mind
But its okay and its alright
I don’t care, I don’t lie and it’s okay no0o
I don’t care I don’t mind
But its ok and its alright
I don’t care and I don’t lie

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